Soulful Longing

I have a deep soul-longing to be God's beloved. The sweetness of this is that, although my faith can't fathom it very well, God has already embraced me as His. The creeping, dark doubts that tell me how hugely I fail, cannot and will not have victory over His purpose for my life. Whether I'm crushed to produce a sweet aroma, or raised up to shine like a city on a hill, I will seek Him with my soul. I will relentlessly look for Him to be the meaning of my life. And I know He will make me what I am not.

There is a great sadness for some of my family, because they are waiting to embrace Jesus once He makes sense to them. It breaks my heart, because it will never make sense until they embrace Him. Faith takes the step before it has the answer. And only faith will satisfy their souls.

May God increase and satisfy my yearning for Him to be close to me. And-as Ruth Graham said-may I be all that is loveliness and laughter.