Woman all the way!

I am experiencing a whole new sensation as a soon-to-be-married woman. It's like I've graduated in my own mind to a new level of life....well I guess I have in a way. There are many aspects of regular adult life that I just never let myself enjoy before. For example: manicures. I just wasn't into them. And all of a sudden, I have an appointment for my second one (in my life...I know...that's pretty crazy). Another example...I'm going to a spa on Sunday and getting a massage. Crazy! I've got a collection of cute sexy clothes that I will actually be allowed to wear next week! And I look good in them! I guess it's like, because I'm doing all this work to have a wedding next week....I'm also allowing myself to be pampered in ways that I never would have before. And while part of me will always love the childhood mode of jumping out of bed and throwing on whatever is in the drawer because all that matters is getting outside to play...part of me is loving the spa and manicures and cute clothes and looking like a lady for my man (not the "stayed-up-to-late college student" that I usually look like).

I admit, I was always rather critical of the pampered woman with her gorgeous nails, perfect hair, chic clothes, and confidant air. Now I think I might enjoy being that woman--once in a while. Don't worry my friends, I am still my natural self...with undyed hair, little to no makeup and average body. But I'm having a little fun here! And what's more...it's extending to my kitchen, bedroom, bathroom, and closets! I have glass bakeware now. I have new white towels and a change of sheets for the bed! It never occured to me that at any time in my life I would enjoy the things that I now enjoy. It's sortof like when you finally get the hang of college life and confidence takes complete control. I'm getting the hang of being a 24 year old woman who is about to start a new family.

I think the real "wake-up" came on Wednesday. I'd been feeling stress. I was losing sight of some of the glory of being a future bride. In truth, I just wanted the wedding over so that I could get back to a comfortable routine. I whined a little to Luke, then felt terribly guilty at work...what have I got to complain about? I had an appointment with my hairdresser for that evening to practice my hair for the wedding. So that gave me the idea. When Luke walked into my apartment at 8:30 that night...I met him at the door with my hair in curls and wearing a cute sundress. Candlelight filled the apartment, our favorite love song played in the background, and I had dessert and sparkling grape juice waiting. The tears in his eyes and the way he danced with me before I even said anything was like a punch in the stomach..."oh yeah, this is why I'm getting married!".

And friends, here is the shock of all shockers...I'm finally getting organized! I know, I'm a little late. I finally bought a notebook yesterday and organized my whole week up until the wedding...I have all my notes, lists, reminders, and appointments in one place (anyone who has seen the stacks of notes at my apartment and in my purse will know how significant this is!).

I even took a little time to be creative and do some scrapbooking last night. (okay, I admit, this does mean that something else important on my to-do-list did not get done last night-oops.)

How I wish you could all come to the wedding next week.