Lavender and Laughter

Life is too short to drink tea out of a plastic cup....I created this blog to pour the lavender and laughter of my life into yours.

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I am complicated and I am a Marshwiggle (like Puddleglum from Lewis' The Silver Chair). Personality tests don't work on me. I yearn to see Jesus face to face, and to see the love in His eyes. I am learning to walk on water and to be a new person in Christ. I am in love with my husband and baby, and I love the smell of coffee and lavender mixed together.

Friday, October 28, 2005

October

By William Morris
1834-1896
O Love, turn from the unchanging sea, and gaze
Down these grey slopes upon the year grown old,
A-dying mid the autumn-scented haze,
That hangeth o’er the hollow in the wold,
Where the wind-bitten ancient elms enfold
Grey church, long barn, orchard, and red-roofed stead,
Wrought in dead days for men a long while dead.

Come down, O love; may not our hands still meet,
Since still we live today, forgetting June,
Forgetting May, deeming October sweet –
-- hearken, hearken! Through the afternoon,
The grey tower sings a strange old tinkling tune!
Sweet, sweet, and sad, the toiling year’s last breath,
Too satiate of life to strive with death.

And we too – will it not be soft and kind,
That rest from life, from patience and from pain;
That rest from bliss we know not when we find;
That rest from Love which ne’er the end can gain? –
Hark, how the tune swells, that erewhile did wane!
Look up, love! –ah, cling close and never move!
How can I have enough of life and love?

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Carve a Pumpkin!

Donna Kris sent me this website...and it's so fun! I can't stop playing with it. I must really be bored! Click on the title to carve your own :)

My Weekend with JoyAnna

Click here to read about my fun weekend :)

In Remembrance of a Godly Man...

Dave Frick was a man in the church that my family grew up in. He passed away this last week. My brother wrote this post about him. What he says is "right on". I pray that we all learn to love that way.

"I'm going to miss Dave Frick a lot. When pastors talked about being "passionate", the young people in the church knew that they could have said "Mister Frick" interchangeably. It wasn't just because he wasn't afraid to say "Amen", and mean it; it was because he wasn't afraid to love us. When I got kicked out of school, he was the only one who reached out to me (and helped me through that tough time). He really had an important role for us young people. When dumb jocks ripped on us skinny guys, he would talk about the guy on his navy ship named "beanpole" - as the crew found out, the strongest guy on the ship. And the guy wasn't an intellectual, but when I looked at Dave Frick I saw Jesus, and there weren't many people I could say that about. The pastors just dismissed our family as dysfunctional (despite a few courtesy visits); but Mr. Frick just accepted us and I know he really believed God had a plan for me, and when I was around him I believed it too.

And without warning, he's gone. It hurts, but differently than I would have thought; when I think about him I don't feel regret, but hope. After a life full of love and giving, and a share of pains and burdens, the decay of this life accumulates... and then it's just time to go.

Dave Frick's life doesn't teach anything new; humility, compassion, passion for holiness. I could know all the greek and hebrew and theology in the world, but if I haven't learned these things, I haven't learned anything at all. So I guess I'll thank him again soon enough for his good lessons. With that, it's time to get back to the here-and-now and catch up on homework (good luck with that). Chow" ---Joshua Powers

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Separation

I have always had a hard time dealing with separation from people that I love. As my mom would say, it’s like having a hole in my heart. But there is a connection that I never realized until recently. I dropped my friend off at the airport early this morning, and cried as I drove back to my apartment. The strange thing was, at first I was crying for JoyAnna, but then I knew that even more than wanting to be near her, I wanted to be near Jesus. It wasn’t just for JoyAnna that I cried. It was for my Lord and Savior. Every longing I have to be near someone…my friends and family…that longing is intensified with the desire to be near my God. I wonder if the separation we experience over and over again in life from those whose presence we want to feel—is just a small glimpse of our souls longing for the presence of God.


And it hit me…life is so short—I just take a deep breath, and the next thing I know, I’ll be with Him!



Thursday, October 20, 2005

Jenny's Cat

Hey all you art majors! Are you tired of your animals moving before you can finish your drawing? Well, meet the world's best model cat. Chloe can sit still for hours just to be in your still-life picture! Seriously! She won't even blink!

Okay, not so seriously. Chloe just WISHES she could be in Jenny's still life picture--it will take her about 1 minute to forget sitting still and start pouncing on Mr. Dough Boy!

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Serving

This is a post from my pastor's blog. I thought it was very good and a great challenge for us. We get so focused on the wrong things!

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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

My Pieces of Heaven

“Riding” on Old Faithful, playing my harmonica
Thinking on my roof outside my bedroom window—hidden behind the maple tree—looking at God’s stars
Mom’s old seal-skin leather Bible
Bagpipes, fiddles, and drums in Alma during the Highland Festival
Walking the dog alone in silent December in the crunching snow—wearing mom’s vintage ankle-length wool coat like a princess
Horseback riding with Katie out in the country one last time
Praying out in the woods at Lake Ann
Pretending to be Jo March, writing by candlelight
Swinging on my back porch
Drinking coffee with my writing friends at Barnes and Noble and sharing ideas (like the Inklings)
Losing myself in the glamour of a Broadway show
Hiking the dunes and pine forests in northern Michigan
Seeing New York City for the first time
Forgetting my own life with all my little children at West Lenox
Reading “Willy Wind” to a roomful of people
Being held by someone who I know loves me unconditionally
Singing with my sister in reckless abandon
Laughing uncontrollably with my suite mates at BBC
Smelling the fresh air blow off of Lake Michigan
God’s strong and embracing presence with me when I broke my engagement
Creating a painting that I know is going to be beautiful
The song during the credits at the end of The Princess Bride
Picking up doughnuts and coffee from the ghetto doughnut place with Jessie
Mom and I sitting on my favorite antique rod-iron bed drinking coffee
Placing a bouquet of wild apple blossoms in a jar against my green bedroom wall
Falling in love with Mr. Knightly every time I watch Emma
Secretly trying on my wedding dress—no one may ever see it—God sees how beautiful I am in it and He understands
Memorizing the book of Philippians
Taking photos in Boston
Watching the sunset on Grandma’s front porch
Making a room look beautiful like a magazine picture
“This is the way the lady rides…” with Charleigh and Calvin
Talking about Life and Scripture with Grandma


There is TONS more...but need I go on?

Monday, October 17, 2005

The Love of God

There’s a wideness in God’s mercy
I cannot find in my own
And He keeps his fire burning
To melt this heart of stone

Keeps me aching with a yearning
Keeps me glad to have been caught
In the reckless raging fury
That they call the love of God

Joy and sorrow are His Ocean
And in their every ebb and flow
Now the Lord a door has opened
That all hell could never close

Here I'm tested and made worthy
Tossed about but lifted up
In the wreckless raging fury
That they call the love of God

This is part of a Rich Mullins song that I dearly love. I have been a stubborn and blind daughter of Christ at times, but God keeps on loving me, even when I refuse to acknowledge it. I’m so thankful He melts my heart when it’s hard, makes me yearn when I’ve lost hope, brings me back to Himself over and over again. Who could find a better love than this?

I was watching Les Miserables last night, and each time I watch it, it reminds me of the amazing mercy and grace of Jesus Christ. He heals us with His love, and then gives us the power to heal others with His love. I don't deserve that...and I'm so so so grateful!

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

My Productiveness at Work

Life's Little Strangers


I have a visitor at work today! It seems I'm not the only one that enjoys Chai Tea in the fall. Poor little fella, what a cold and dreary world awaits him!

Monday, October 10, 2005

There are two of me!

I’m struggling to put myself together…

I want to “let my hair down”. I’m ready to step over the line and throw all sadness and mistrust behind. I’d like to hold my head back and feel free and joyful—to really believe that someone can manifest the love of God for me—and that I can be joyful and positive for the one fact that God loves me unconditionally. I want to love people fully and not care if they reject me. I would like to always see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m ready to be the baby that laughs and picks herself up again when she falls.

I feel like I have to hold back, to protect myself from people who are out to hurt. I cannot fully trust, and am just waiting for more betrayal. I don’t love fully because the love always gets sucked up and I get nothing back (I know…that’s selfish). If I let go…I will get burned, and will I be strong enough to honor Christ? I am a pessimist who knows how selfish we all really are.

I know I want to be passionate and love life, but I don’t know how to do it and be cautious at the same time…guard my heart, so to speak. Is there a middle ground? Where in Scripture do I find the answers to this? This conflict needs to end!

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Trust and the Infinite

I came across this quote in a website about George MacDonald, and have gone back to it again and again. I've scrutinized it and chewed on it...is it right? Is it biblical? I'm challenged by it to remember how big my God is. Coincidentally, I was also reminded by a friend that I do not have to totally understand God's love and His grace, but I must totally trust in it.

"I firmly believe people have hitherto been a great deal too much taken up about doctrine and far too little about practice. The word doctrine, as used in the Bible, means teaching of duty, not theory. We are far too anxious to be definite and to have finished, well-polished, sharp-edged systems — forgetting that the more perfect a theory about the infinite, the surer it is to be wrong, the more impossible it is to be right."
--From a letter to his father, quoted in George MacDonald and His Wife by Greville MacDonald

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Inspiration

Have you ever noticed how something small can make you look at your day with fresh eyes? A new friend at work brought me a Chai Tea from Starbucks and I am now inspired to create a painting tonight…of pumpkins! I wonder how much potential we have of inspiring each other to do amazing things, yet we rarely stop to think about the possibility.

(My mom is like a secret book full of beautiful wisdom and thoughts on life…won’t somebody inspire her to create her own blog to share those thoughts with us?)